Fruitarian Thoughts

Today my adorable 9 year old niece came over for dinner.

Everyone got burritos, but I got rice and beans and made an enormous salad and put the rice and beans on top for a wannabe fruitarian, semi high carb low fat vegan meal.

My niece was in awe of the size of the bowl.

She was like, “that looks like a bowl you would bring to serve a whole family!”

She was like, “are you really going to eat all that?” multiple times.

Then she was like, “but you don’t look that…..”

“fat?” I said?

“yeah” she said.

I told her eating this had actually made me lose weight! She was amazed.

What’s so sad is she told me in my room when she was rolling up her pants that it was so embarrassing cause her tiny thighs were really fat.

She is at that age already where she is worried about being fat. I’d say that was crazy, but I remember also thinking I was fat at that tiny bony age.

She was really into the idea of fruitarianism. When I told her you could eat as much fruit as you wanted, she was like “i would totally do it if I could.”

haha.

I guess it’s just funny to me.

You don’t get that response a lot from most people, lol.

But it’s also not funny. So many girls, growing girls, go through life with this huge weight on their mind. That they’re going to get fat and be humiliated and shamed by our culture for life.

Something I have experienced firsthand.

I wish I had known about how to eat enormous bowls of food and not get fat. I went hungry too much in my past.

By choice.

I don’t like that.

I wasted a lot of time starving myself on low carb diets that were really high in fat. But I didn’t know what that meant.

It bothers me now when I hear people trying to give up sugar or deal with their emotional eating.

I feel like they should try high carb low fat vegan, but that’s the exact opposite of everything they believe.

Sugar is Evil. Fruit makes you fat. It’s not healthy. You need protein. You’ll get potassium poisoning.

YEAHHH….heard it all before.

Fruit is so good. It always tastes fresh and delicious…well most of the time. I’m so glad I’ve eaten so much fruit this year. It’s pretty cool.

I haven’t got the low fat high carb thing down perfect, but I am getting better, and it is soooooooo much easier and less stressful than when I started.

My friend reminded me the other day of how when I first started the diet, I would say to him “I F-ing hate fruit” laughing. Because I was trying to be raw, but fruit got so boring.

Now my tastebuds have changed and I never say that. I know what fruits I like, and when I like them. I know what bad or tasteless fruit tastes like and I won’t eat it. I know that if I waited too long to eat and the hunger snuck up on me, then i either have to eat a lot of fruit really fast or just eat something more substantial to get over the hump. I know that the more fruit I eat, the more benefits I see so I feel really motivated to eat fruit.

I am extremely happy with my way of eating. It isn’t hard at all now. It really was in the beginning though. My family have mostly accepted it. I figured out that I could eat potatoes and McDougal style recipes and starches as back ups though now, and now it’s all good.

I’m on a roll.